Depression and Anxiety

I know many people out there would not like to say or show others that they are depressed. I hate being depressed myself. I am depressed because I think I am a loser in life. Only if something good happens would I get out of this miserable situation. I wish I had a girlfriend, had a good car or even have a good paying job. As far as I am depressed the chances to getting any of those is nil. If something tends to come in life, I take it for granted and spoil it. Seriously I would feel like ending my life but then that's a total failure. Nothing good ever happens. Hardwork pays but I don't get the chance. There are a lot of things I would like to do but none become realistic. All those fantasies and dreams are now hopeless.

I am anxious because I don't know if I should chase something only to give it up later because I am not fit for it or that someone doesn't want me. How does this love work and isn't love supposed to last a lifetime? Being single is way better than getting hurt in a relationship says people. Whatever it is, it is your life and you should be the one guiding it.